Saturday, January 3, 2009

New Years Resolutions - Looking Back on Last Year

Well, I guess it's that time of year again. A time when we all make promises to ourselves and others that we don't intend to keep. It's a time when you look back on life, evaluating the choices and decisions that have brought you to where you are. Did you do everything you could? Is the world a better place because you were alive last year? Or is my existence just that; existing. What have I done? Am I any better then I was a year ago? Have I accomplished all that I wanted to?
Looking back, I've realized that things have changed. They might be small changes, but they still occurred. For instance, Randy and I have moved from Sunny St. George, to cold, snowy Tooele. Randy is no longer working for Target, and I have increased my work commute to 30 or more miles a day. (Thankfully gas prices have decreased.) We've made new friends, and lost some old ones. We've had a few hospital visits, as well as birthday parties, and spending the holidays with friends and family.
Since change is inevitable, what should I want and hope that the new year will bring? Randy and I are still madly in love, and I don't see that changing anytime soon. Unfortunatly I don't think we'll have enough money saved up, even by the end of the year, to buy our own house. Since I can't fulfill it, I am not going to consider it a resolution. With all the problems we've had trying to start a family, I think that's out of the picture for the next year too. It seem that my only constant in life right now is Randy. I guess I could resolve to love him more. That also seems silly to me though, because I love him more every single day. It would be redundant to resolve to do that. So, this year, I'm not making any resolutions. I intend to take the year head on, and accept anything that comes my way. Here's looking to 2009.