Life's Trials.

Just before Father's Day a few months ago, I was surprised and excited to get a (+) on the pregnancy test I took. Randy and I were totally thrilled, only to have our hopes crushed a few days later. Not even a week after we went to the Dr. to confirm it, a trip to the E.R. interrupted our plans.
"Spontaneous abortion", they called it. Those words have ripped my heart apart. To me, abortion has always meant "getting rid of a problem or unwanted item." This child, to me, was neither of those. Why is it still so hard to move on? Why doesn't my heart still hurt? We've thought about trying again, picking up where we left off, and hope each month for that (+) test. Granted, it's only been 2, 2 1/2 months since the miscarriage, but still, I'm devastated when AF shows up.
Is it worth it to keep trying? My heart yearns to hold my baby. Does the pain ever stop? Will we ever get that chance?

Merrill Family Reunion

Just a few pics from the 2008 Merrill Family Reunion. July 1-4, 2008 at the Southern Utah University Mountain Lodge.

Dave & Lynda's Family - Kevin, Ryan & Christina, Taydan, Jerek, Troy & Liz, Sarah, Jimmy, Cameron, Dustin

Jerry & Jean -

Deloy, Sharon, Andrea and Mason -

Belinda & Keith, Jonathan & Wife, Jenny, Debbie

Keith made a solar oven out of card board boxes and tinfoil. Then, since he had lunch duty, he decided to cook hot dogs with it. They turned out pretty good! You would think they were cooked on the stove. Yea Keith!

Lynette & Doug

Nadine & Dan, Karen & Randy, Melissa, Braydan, Cayson, Emily

Randy and I took Brayday, Cayson, Colton and Melissa snipe hunting. We caught one, but it bit Randy, so Randy beat it to death. We brought it back to the cabin to show everyone what we caught.

Rick, Shelly & Jared

Casandra & Lanny, Kelsi & Brian, Brooklyn, Kenzie and Colton